do you find me grotesque?

am i grotesque to u? is this what u see when u look at me?

i like this more then drawing, i think the feeling of torment and pain is way easier with this form of expression...

so... this was fun, as they always are... i really love doing makeup fx... the flour, makeup, blood mixture ran into my mouth, wasnt planned, and eww, i still taste it... blah... i made the wound... umm, very hard, with trying to keep one eye closed and the other opened... ugh, idk what else to say...

does this need a warning?? cause i have no clue... -.-

oh, and most all my makeup pics, i edit in windows photo thing, just to darken it up a lil...